An Investment, That Is More Then A Piece A Paper

I get on myself every day. What I mean by that is, I am hard on my self. My injury has digress my progression. In this one is actually physically, not mentally. My job search has started good but quickly ended. You would think that in my profession it's easy to get a job. And your wrong, it's not. Every body is searching for some one young, with little experience, a fast learner. Those are the basics. So you would think that I apply perfectly in to that description. But I don't. Let me explain. My age is the biggest factor. They say they are looking for someone young, yes but that someone young is an age 27 an up. When you are at that age you look more responsible and you gave an impression that you can become a part of a team in month. And you still look like a good investment in the future. With my age, witch is 22, I am a liability. That age says, I want to work, I want to make something out of my self. But it also says, that I am too much of an investment, too much work with me to become a good member of a team. To much mentoring. Do you know what I mean? They want some one young, but a guy that can do it by theme self fast, with not a lot of help by others. And that is hard to achieve if you are 22. You need help. And my number doesn't help there. So I began to think about that a lot. And my response to my ''lady that should help me to find a job'' is if I still don't get a job until February. Why should I say yes to some one who constantly says no? I don't want to live like this for the rest of my life, but why should't I look for an alternative direction.Why should I force my self to that, no, that constantly appears. It is there mistake if they can't see the potential or at least the wish to do it the normal way. It is there loss if they can't see how good an investment I am. I do agree on one think. I do need mentoring and do need extra help. But once that the comfortability zone comes, once I feel confidante, I can shine. Big time. So should I gave up, and try to look for alternative answers? How do I say out loud, that I want to stop saying yes to there no, and star saying no, and try my own way. Or not even my own way, but to try something that is not written on my paper of who I am. I am a chef. But I get the idea it's not in it for me. And everyone only sees what is written on my paper. I am much more then my age and my occupation. I am much more.



Mike Wood